The section & # 39; Daeshi & # 39; of the Al-Hawl refugee camp is a strange and prohibitive place.
The displaced jihadist wives, covered from head to toe by long black robes, wander among the floating white curtains they call home, clutching their shoulder bags.
This is their only reference to Western values and the background of suppressed threat is unmistakable.
Many of these women, still slaves of their men and of the brutal ideology of the Islamic State, have attacked the people who are trying to help them.
Shamima Begum in the picture with the one-week son in the field of Al Hawl for the captured ISIS wives
Market day in the field of Al Hawl. Shamima has released several interviews, but I am the first journalist who invited the inside of the tent to call home
I came to see the most famous jihadist bride of all, Shamima Begum, the teenager of East London, but I am not allowed to visit this part of the camp without a security guard armed with an AK assault rifle -47.
Since she was discovered here at the start of this month, nine months pregnant and escaped from IS's showdown, Shamima has released several interviews, but I'm the first journalist she invited into the tent she calls home .
He sits with his legs crossed on a thin black mattress in his socks, the one-week-old son, Jerah, on his knees. The child is named after an Islamic warlord of the 7th century.
Shamima told me that she was given the tent because she is "famous now".
By removing the veil, she politely explains that she regrets that she can not offer me tea because she has no means to heat the water.
At only 19, he lives in a war zone from the age of 15. She gave birth three times and lost two children: a young daughter died a few weeks ago and lost the other child at eight months of age. Her husband is in prison.
Shamima told the Mail if he was allowed to return to Britain and would be dedicated to stopping other radicalized girls
I find that Shamima is painful to be conciliatory. At the end it seems to understand the offense that caused and the damage that has caused its prospects to return home (pictured: Market Day in the field of Al Hawl)
His family in Britain said he was horrified by some of the things he said and over the weekend his father condemned his lack of remorse for what IS did.
Today I find that Shamima is painful to be conciliatory. At the end he seems to understand the offense he has caused and the damage he has caused to his prospects of returning home.
"I hope I have a second chance," he says quietly.
I would like to be an example of how someone can change. I want to help, encourage other young Britons to think before making life-changing decisions like this and not to make the same mistake as me.
"I can not do it if I'm sitting here in a field, I can not do it for you."
Cynics might question his sincerity and cling to the belief that he is a victim in all this, rather than someone who has chosen to leave his home and join a terrorist group.
"I feel like I've been discriminated against because everyone said I was a poster girl for ISIS," he says of the decision to undress her passport. "They are an example. I've been punished now because I'm famous. "
And she wonders why dozens of other jihadist wives and their children have been allowed to return to the UK after going to Syria to join the IS.
It is claimed that about 425 members of the British IS, men, women and children, have so far returned to the United Kingdom, the highest number in Europe.
He admits to being scared, also because his recent "fame" had infuriated many other jihadist wives in the field.
"Now many women hate me, I'm afraid of many people," he says.
Perhaps with a good cause. I have been told by others here that his recent interviews – in which he exposed his face on TV – have made angry the most intransigent IS women in the field. There was talk of his burned tent.
Some recent arrivals from the Deir ez-Zor campaign have to sleep outside before the tents are available. Dozens of children have died in the cold already this winter
The vast camp hosts up to 40,000 refugees from Syria's war zones who are assisted by the International Red Cross and various non-governmental organizations. Conditions are desperate.
Some recent arrivals from the Deir ez-Zor campaign have to sleep outside before the tents are available. Dozens of children have died in the cold already this winter.
Now it is midday, the sun is shining and inside the tent it is hot and suffocating. But Shamima will not open the flap to circulate the air in case they are spotted without their veil.
Women in the "Daeshi" area of the camp – Daesh is the Arabic term used by its detractors to describe the IS – they are enclosed by barbed wire fences and can not get out of its perimeter.
There are hundreds of fanatical fanatical families on this side of the barbed wire fence, recently arrived from the battlefield in and around the village of Baghouz where the group is making its last stand.
Among them there are a dozen British citizens, but most are going to scrupulous lengths to avoid being identified.
Among them are a dozen British citizens, but most are going to scrupulous lengths for not being identified
The food is brought by women from the refugee side, where it is then sold to those "Daeshi" families who have smuggled money from the crumbling remains of their terrorist group.
Others rely on the dispensations of non-governmental organizations, the Kurdish authorities and the international Red Cross.
Shamima coughs and says, even if today is mild, is sick from the cold. It is lucky to have a tent but there is not an oil stove for cooking.
She says she is "stressed" by the lack of sleep while nursing her gurgling son, who is wearing a white and blue sweatshirt baby growing up – donated to her by another mother in the camp.
Shamima has announced on his arrival that he would like to marry an English-speaking fighter aged 20-25
As we sit down to chat cross-legged, she begins to open up about how life has been under IS.
He handed in his British passport gladly when he arrived in Syria with two classmates in February 2015.
They took my passport but I thought about myself & # 39; What am I going to do with it? I do not really need it, "he says.
She never expected to go back. His future, the future he wanted, was like a housekeeper in the caliphate.
Ten days after arriving in Raqqa, she was taken to a room to meet Yago Riedijk, a Dutch convert to 23-year-old Islam. It was the moment he was waiting for.
She never expected to go back. His future, the future he wanted, was like a housekeeper in the caliphate
She announced that she would like to marry an English-speaking fighter between the ages of 20 and 25. Riedijk, who changed his name to Abu Zoraya was, he says, only his type.
"When I saw it for the first time, I was thinking" Ok, yes, it's nice "," he chuckles, momentarily the excited teen. He even had a piece of paper in his pocket with a list of questions for him.
"I pulled out the paper, this is what women do, you have to ask your questions. He was straight and he was honest with me. "
His first question was: what do you expect from me?
"He told me he was strict and wanted a good housewife to stay inside. He did not want someone who is Westernized and wants to always go out and stuff, "he said.
Your next question: are you a fighter?
"He said he was still injured and was still recovering, but he was going to fight early," he said. Any other questions and that was that. "I said yes, and he said yes."
He had obtained what he had come for. A husband who was fighting for IS and a "normal" life.
Shamima Begum in the field of Al Hawl in Kurdish Syria
"I went to ISIS thinking that I would have a normal life but it did not turn out to be true. I've just been induced, I suppose, "he says sadly.
Outside there is a cry: a three-year-old boy has just pointed an improvised catapult full of stones on the head of a child less than a meter away.
Our photographer Jamie Wiseman, who is waiting outside the tent, is forced to intervene.
Shamima loves her husband Riedijk, a convicted terrorist who according to police is part of a cell that plans a "atrocity in Europe, but is disappointed with the prospect of a future with him.
"I hope he sees his only surviving son, he loved his children very much, when I lost them I think he had a bigger effect on me than he did," he says.
"If he is sent back to his country, he will do his time there in his country … (I will) I will wait for him." I am still married to him. "We discuss the political situation and the suggestion of the secretary of the house, Sajid Javid. that the children of IS are brought back without their mother.
According to estimates by the Soufan Center, a thinktank on global security issues, up to 100 children could be born of British jihadist wives in Syria and Iraq.
It is estimated that about 150 British girls and women have traveled to reach IS, and almost all have married and have given birth.
The sprawling Al Hawl refugee camp containing a safe area for captured ISIS wives
All of a sudden, for the first time, he shows an emotion and bursts into tears. "How can you ask a mother to separate from her son, especially after all I've lost? This guy is all I have.
What is missing most from Britain, he says, is "the feeling of being safe and secure, not having planes flying over me, not having to move casually in the middle of the night".
For now, Shamima and her little son must stay in their little tent until their fate is decided.
He shares it with Dura Ahmed, 28, a Canadian mother who tries to appease her child in tears with a chocolate cookie. There are a couple of backpacks, a bit of bread, a tray of spreadable cheese and some full water jugs.
In the corner of Shamima there is a pair of blue neon fake Nike sneakers. He bought them for just over $ 4 (£ 3) a few days ago. It was the few dollar bills she had left.
It's time for me to leave, promising to come back with news from the outside world. "Inshalla (God willing) See you soon, & # 39; I tell you.