Stefan (Lars Eidinger) is a pilot, has a big flat, a fast car and a lot of lovers. When he loses his hearing and can no longer work, he clings to his old life: So Stefan puts on the pilot's uniform and tears open in hotel bars women. Even with his two siblings Julia (Nele Mueller-Stöfen) and Tobias (Hans Löw) are just great life changes. The new movie “All my Loving” by director Edward Berger contains the highs and lows of life and asks big questions.
Why has Lars Eidinger (43, “Babylon Berlin”) decided to participate in the drama and when he first dealt with the death, the actor has revealed in an interview with the news agency spot on news.
What attracted you to the film project “All my Loving”?
Lars Eidinger: First the director Edward Berger, from whom I saw his movie “Jack”. And when I read the script, it was the individual situations in which the figure Stefan is, which I found appealing. He is obviously in a life crisis and deals with issues that I also deal with.
How would you handle it if you lost your hearing or your eyesight?
Eidinger: There are people who say: Dear blind as deaf. I can not understand that, to be honest. The visual is the absolute priority in our society. Not to be seen would be the worst for me. Anyway, I do not hear that much from my DJ work any more. I think I could rather do without hearing. Although actors without hearing are probably not that easy.
How would you handle it if your body sent you such a clear warning signal?
Eidinger: I would see it as a challenge. Sometimes it is also helpful or appealing to do something completely different. And I have enough other talents that I could do as well as I could.
The Hamlet quote “There is no good or bad, unless thinking makes it that way” can actually apply to such situations well … Does acting help you to think more openly?
Eidinger: I used to think that I had to enrich what I put into fiction with what I experienced privately. And would have to use that to make my game more profound and interesting. Meanwhile, I have the experience that it is actually the other way round. That what I experience and experience in the game makes me a more complex and richer personality. I stand on stage and live through that. That does not bounce off me, I'm not an avatar. I'm a flesh-and-blood person and everything I experience in the game is what my body and brain react to.
That's interesting. As a layman who has no idea about acting, one thinks that the actor incorporates experiences from his life.
Eidinger: But I did not know certain things. I play every night as Hamlet, that I die in the end. But I never died.
“All my Loving” is a sibling movie. You probably can not avoid having personal experiences included?
Eidinger: Of course, this fertilizes each other. It's not that I do not even go back to what I experience privately.
What experiences have you been able to incorporate?
Eidinger: That siblings do not have to be alike at all. This is a mistake that fiction often succumbs to: for example, I do not resemble my brother at all. One expects from fiction a completely different logic than from real life. In my life a lot is illogical.
What do you mean?
Eidinger: To quote Hamlet again: “To know another human being is to know oneself”. I can not answer a lot of questions about myself, how can I do that about a movie character? When I'm asked, “What do you want in your life and who are you?” – I am over-questioned.
What does luck mean to you?
Eidinger: There is a quote from Homer Simpson: People make mistakes, otherwise pencils would not be erasers. I have realized that defeats are human. This dynamic between high and low is what makes up life. Standstill in perfection that you so long for, that's actually death. And the other is what makes up life. With that I have made my peace and I imagine that I have been happier ever since.
How intensively have you dealt with death?
Eidinger: Not more intense than anyone else. This is also the theme of the film that someone in the midlife crisis realizes that it is about to die. The wrinkles become more and the hair becomes lighter. Actually, you look every morning death in the face.
Have you had such a moment in your life?
Eidinger: I had that early. When I was ten years old, I figured out: If I'm ten years old now, then, if all goes well, I'll only have eight times as long. And I found that extremely little. But I have made peace with it because I understood that the thrill of life is precisely that it is finite.
Are you shocked when iconic people like Karl Lagerfeld die?
Eidinger: The death of Karl Lagerfeld made me more hopeful. I felt he was at peace with himself and life. I would say he had a very fulfilling life. From this point of view, the last fashion show was celebrated. He also said that he wants to be burned because he wants to disappear without a trace. Someone has learned to let go. I find that admirable.
Letting go seems to be a pretty important aspect of life.
Eidinger: That's why I really like theater more as a film. Nothing is recorded in the theater, you let go. This has more to do with life for me. That's how I understand the quote from Karl Lagerfeld. It does not have to stay that way. When I leave, I'm gone.
Do you wish that for yourself?
Eidinger: I definitely do not want to get burned! I do not know what comes next. In the end I have to live on in the hereafter as a pile of ashes. I would like to be buried as I am dying.