Channel 4 Star Jess Megan Reveals Grief Over Boyfriend’s Sudden Death

Jess Megan, known for her appearance on Channel 4’s Bring Back The Bush in 2020, has publicly shared her profound grief following the unexpected death of her boyfriend, Ollie. After a four-year silence on social media, Megan posted a series of 12 videos documenting her emotional journey through loss.

Sudden Loss and Initial Shock

Megan revealed that Ollie died from what she described as “sudden adult death,” explaining that he went to bed and never woke up. She recounted being informed of his passing by his flatmate. The initial shock and subsequent months were marked by intense emotional turmoil, including a period where she slept on his grave shortly after his death in March.

Raw and Vulnerable Account on Social Media

In a deeply personal post, Megan detailed her struggles with mental and physical health. She described moments of despair, including walking barefoot in a bathrobe even as openly sharing her grief with strangers, followed by cycles of heavy drinking and smoking. “Grief made me feral,” she wrote, detailing a period of self-destructive behavior.

Timeline of Grief and Recovery

The videos shared by Megan offer a chronological glimpse into her grief:

• January: Megan and Ollie were featured in the viral “See You Again” trend inspired by Miley Cyrus, capturing a moment of happiness before the tragedy.
• February: Ollie was still alive.
• March: Ollie passed away, and Megan was seen with a bloodied nose, having slept on his grave.
• April & May: Megan documented her intense crying and emotional distress.
• June: She revealed she hadn’t left the house for months.
• July: Megan confessed she couldn’t stop drinking and had cut off communication with others.
• August: She described feeling “out of her mind.”
• September: Megan was smoking 40 cigarettes a day.
• October: She was hospitalized after suffering a heart attack.

Finding Hope and Resilience

Megan shared that she documented her experiences through photographs as a way to remember the depth of her pain and to remind herself of her capacity for survival. “If the sun ever came out again, I would take full advantage,” she reflected. She acknowledged the immense cost of grief – impacting her health, judgment, happiness, relationships, and well-being – but ultimately offered a message of hope.

“What I want people to recognize, is that there is a way out,” Megan wrote. “Whatever your situation is. Though you’ve been hurt (Grief isn’t exclusive to death). But that way out is not linear…You’ll do it wrong, you’ll make huge, irresponsible mistakes…But it can be and it will. Just take every day in minutes. I love you, nugget. It’ll be alright.”

About Bring Back The Bush

Jess Megan appeared on Bring Back The Bush: Where Did All The Pubic Hair Head? in 2020. The Channel 4 documentary explored the cultural pressures surrounding female grooming and body hair removal.